THOUGHT I COULD BUT I CANT

THOUGHT I COULD BUT I CAN’T

can’t do it

Rehearsed in my mind a million ways to make it happen

Brainstormed about who and what to move around to make room for you

What’s that? What’s that you’re hiding behind your back? Is that me? Who I was before I met you?

Give me back…NOW

I’ve decided

I’m not strong enough to be your coping mechanism

Your default

Your afterthought

Your panacea

Your just in case

Your oh by the way

Your last resort

I’ve decided

I could never compete with how much you love you at my expense

At the expense of all beautiful things promised yet never delivered

At the expense of me losing me again in order to find you

I heard one say to another, “I’m  ready…I’m ready for you to be who you say you are”

That’s me

No

That was me

Thought I could

But I can’t

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