On Sun. 8.24.14 we were on our way to a friend’s wedding. Instead I ended up in the E.R. no longer able to ignore sudden excruciating chest pain & rapid fire heartbeats. I was pissed that we were going to miss the wedding and the ONLY thing on my mind was a special project at work I had been assigned & was right in the middle of.
I fought going to the hospital the whole way. It wasn’t until they put the badge on my wrist, IV in my arm & gave me an EKG that reality set in. I later learned that I was born with a heart defect that had gone undetected all these years.
I’d always been known for my bear hugs but after being released from the hospital, I found myself holding people even closer & longer than before. Telling them how much they meant to me and how I loved them every chance I got.
From “Calm down Brooklyn”, “Be gentle with yourself” to “Put your mask on first”, the very FEW people I allow VIP access to my life began to check the brawler in me. Always ready to throw my fists up to defend or palms up to praise, I realized I didn’t know how to look out for…me.
Today I stood underneath a waterfall.
I smiled & giggled the whole time. Though I envisioned myself several pounds lighter before ever doing so, I was reminded life is too short to wait any longer.
So if I ever hugged and/or kissed you I gave you something special. I gifted you with that moment we shared through the lens of it being our last.
Today I stood underneath a waterfall and the only thing missing…was you.
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