HAPPY RESURRECTION SUNDAY!!

I absolutely cannot believe it’s April 1, 2018 already! But I am totally committed to seeing the March 2018 Writing Challenge through to completion! It has been fun, insightful and incredibly challenging to write AND post everyday. I am always writing but there are times where either my schedule prevents my ability to upload the post or what I’m writing that day doesn’t coincide with the theme.

Either way I’m so glad you’re here!! When I checked my stats, which I rarely do anymore; I saw that readers from ALL over the world still visit my site!!! It reminded me of the international blog party I threw a couple of years ago! Thank you for being here!!

Well, I’m going to share this writing prompt piece before I head out to church. Much love and prayerfully I can post at least one more tonight. Though I will finish the challenge, I do not want it to leak too much more into April. Let’s go!

Welcome to Day 28 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 28

To Yourself When You Can’t Get Out Of Bed

I think it’s so ironic that due to my delay in posting the theme pertaining to getting up when you don’t want to; falls on Easter Sunday. Though I have many readers and supporters who are non believers, I genuinely appreciate them honoring the Authenticitee Speaks Non Judgement Zone here (and it’s mutual). But as a Christian, Jesus Christ “getting up” is literally the crux of my faith.

But there are days when God uses other things to inspire me to “get up”.

Purpose is imperative! For some it’s the pitter patter of little feet depending on them; be it toddlers or fur babies. For some it’s to pay mortgage or save for college or an upcoming vacation. I’m personally inspired and motivated by remembering those who want to get up and can’t. Be it due to health issues or mobility limitations: the ability to get up is a gift. A gift to oneself and a gift to others.

Jesus Christ’s “getting up” was fueled by LOVE. Find what you love and getting up won’t be so difficult.

Enjoy your day! Let me hear your voice💫e

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Welcome to Day 19 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

I’ve been working on this piece for over two days now. I wondered if I “overthunk” it and so I kept tabling it but that defeats the purpose of raw writing from the heart. So here it goes

I love being alone. There. I said it. I used to define myself as an extrovert with strong introvert tendencies; but that has changed quite a bit in recent years. I am even more introverted than ever. Although I can trace the origin of my semi reclusiveness; I now prefer it. I’ve fully embraced it. But loneliness? Now that is something different.

I have definitely experienced loneliness before and it was a horrible feeling. For me it was more than just a pity party or “woe is me” moment. It was a foreboding heaviness that occurred during what I thought was an exclusive relationship. I would make efforts to communicate and rebuild after enduring a breach but to no avail. Though sporadic and temporary and experienced after being rejected, the loneliness would honestly cause my broken heart to sink. I went about my daily routine and continued pouring out to others (which I love to do); but wasn’t receiving the support and emotional intimacy I really needed. More than that; from who I expected to receive it from.

I really believe expectations can play a huge role in loneliness. We cannot be disappointed if there are no set expectations but every relationship and interaction has parameters, boundaries and expectations; unspoken or not. And it’s unrealistic to place demands on others unbeknownst to them.

I often use the example of someone who said they’d give you a ride to an appointment. If they say they’ll pick you up at 5pm and get there at 5:30pm you may be upset, worried or even angry. However if they said they’d arrive between 5pm and 5:30pm and pick you up at 5:30pm; they have met your expectations, thus keeping your anxiety, worry and anger at bay.

In the aforementioned example; setting expectations made all the difference. Now this does not excuse the other party from keeping their word but it does help us focus on where the responsibility lies. As it relates to relationships and experiencing loneliness in general, I think it’ll be helpful to honestly assess the following:

  • When and why do you feel lonely?
  • Are you lonely or just bored?
  • Do you find it difficult meeting people with the same interests? And if so, why?
  • Are you lonely due to fear or social awkwardness?
  • If so, what are you doing to work through your shyness or social awkwardness?
  • If experiencing loneliness in your relationships, have you communicated that to the other parties?
  • What kind of relationship do you find most challenging? Personal? Professional? For example seeing platonic relationships through the lens of romance, inadvertently ascribes a role to the other party that they may not be interested in.
  • Are we depending on others for our wholeness and happiness?

I want you to know you are not alone. I say it often because it means that much to me!! As a woman of faith it’s not unusual for people to throw Bible Verses across the room. I’ve hurled them a time or two across the room too so I get it. Guilty as charged. I KNOW God is with me. He said He would never leave me nor forsake me BUT God also created us to need and long for human interactions as well!

Life is not easy and there are some things you can’t tell ANYONE! You can have an incredible support network (like I did and still do) and STILL have moments of loneliness! I thank God that that season is behind me and in all fairness it was mild compared to what others endure, but it has only increased my burden and compassion for others dealing with like matters.

Here are a few resources!

For Seniors: The Friendship Line is offered by the Institute on Aging. The Friendship Line Hotline/Warmline number is 800-971-0016.

All ages: For emotional listening support 24 hours a day call CONTACT 1-800-932-4616

If you or a loved one are suicidal, is in crisis or having a hard time coping at this very moment; PLEASE know that you matter and are not alone! If you need someone to talk to, don’t be afraid to reach out to the resources below!

The National Suicide Hotline

800-273-TALK (Veterans Press 1)

TEEN SUICIDE CRISIS HOTLINE- 800-852-8336 (Trained Teen Counselors)

The Trevor Project (LGBT Community) 866-488-7386

Trans Lifeline (Transgendered Community) 877-565-8860

Crisis Text: Text HOTLINE to 741741 ***If outside the U.S visit http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html for assistance

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Welcome to Day 16 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 16

To Anyone Who Is Struggling

I really debated on how I was going to handle the letter writing challenge for today. I kinda felt like I’d been repeating myself lately. I’ve been on this mission of really saving lives and raising suicide awareness for the last few years now and sometimes wonder of it gets old.

But then God reminded me, everybody struggling is not suicidal. And everybody struggling is not struggling with the same thing. But we all struggle with something.

So what I chose for this and if necessary the next few prompts during this challenge is to share a vintage piece that prayerfully will speak to where you are on your journey at this time. If not…bookmark it for a friend won’t ‘cha?

The piece I’ve selected is: Guess I Needed That Cry.

Let me hear your voice…💫e

If you or a loved one are suicidal, is in crisis or having a hard time coping at this very moment; PLEASE know that you matter and are not alone! If you need someone to talk to, don’t be afraid to reach out to the resources below!

The National Suicide Hotline

800-273-TALK (Veterans Press 1)

TEEN SUICIDE CRISIS HOTLINE- 800-852-8336 (Trained Teen Counselors)

The Trevor Project (LGBT Community) 866-488-7386

Trans Lifeline (Transgendered Community) 877-565-8860

Crisis Text: Text HOTLINE to 741741 ***If outside the U.S visit http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html for assistance

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Welcome to Day 10 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 10

To That Person Who Has Lost Everything

Humbled that you would share this with me…

I give my ear and hold my peace

For I have time, compassion and no answers

I used to have answers, theories and remedies

And then the pendulum swung my way.

So now my ear awaits

My peace I share

My time is yours

My compassion irrespective

And I can see with my eyes closed

Your sinews restored

Your core strengthened

And

Your comeback…inevitable

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I really wanted a photo of someone wearing crime scene tape wrapped only around their eyes, heart, or head for this piece! Anything to signify where most often, severe damage has been done. But I didn’t like any of the photos I found, except the one I chose to be featured.

Apparently the scarf pictured is (or was) a hot ticket item that could be purchased everywhere from Etsy to Perpetual Kid. I just knew that the model’s eyes resonated with me. They were strong, cushioned by a bit of a smirk and a “are you sure you wanna do this?” look. It’s as though she wasn’t wearing damage as a crutch or badge of honor but more so as an “Under Construction” label warning.

Hmm…

Under Construction warning labels would actually come in handy…

Some of the most life altering wounds sustained are invisible. But before we can receive whatever greatness lies ahead we MUST take time to HONESTLY assess the damage that we survived during the last injury. The one we didn’t bounce back as fast from. Adrenaline, pride, determination, denial and smiles mask some of the most painful “I’m gonna feel that in the morning” situations.

I’m not telling you what I overheard.

I’m telling you what I know.

I recently began positioning myself in all encompassing quiet spaces for one reason; only to find self introspection, without fail, emerges as the end result. I then chose to stop bucking up against the obvious and instead relish in each new revelation and in some cases correction, God is so graciously giving.

I am learning a lot about myself. Such as what my boundaries are, what my dealbreakers are, what makes me uncomfortable and who makes me uncomfortable. What I will not no longer tolerate and what I need. I’m identifying root causes and dissecting a myriad of intricate heart and mind moments and I love how healing is unfolding. Inner clarity is paramount but somehow we’re conditioned to always look outward for the new thing. I genuinely believe lack of self clarity only impedes progress and prevents us from reaching goals that appear to be within reach.

So why a picture with crime scene tape over the eyes, heart and mind? Because there’s so much that we can’t unsee and dont know what to do with – so we just stop. Stop living, breathing, thriving – but I say it’s time for stopping…to STOP!

How, you ask?

First and foremost be honest with yourself. If it’s survivor’s remorse; own it. Unforgiveness? Own it. Grief? Fear? Own it. Lack of direction or support; own it. I didn’t say claim it – I said own it. Be honest and assess the damage before you inadvertently do more damage!! Excavate your land before you try to build again! As Pastor Valerie Chaney used to say, “Prepare Your Ground For Due Season”!

And as I have learned to say…be kind to yourself as you do so.

Thank you for being here!

Blessings!

e of @authenticiteespeaks

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If you or a loved one are suicidal, is in crisis or having a hard time coping at this very moment; PLEASE know that you matter and are not alone! If you need someone to talk to, don’t be afraid to reach out to the resources below!

The National Suicide Hotline

800-273-TALK (Veterans Press 1)

TEEN SUICIDE CRISIS HOTLINE- 800-852-8336 (Trained Teen Counselors)

The Trevor Project (LGBT Community) 866-488-7386

Trans Lifeline (Transgendered Community) 877-565-8860

Crisis Text: Text HOTLINE to 741741 ***If outside the U.S visit http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html for assistance

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Thank you for being here!

Blessings!

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Season 1 Episode 6 | Finale
Episode Description


Welcome to the “Inspiration With E” Radio Show with Ericka Arthur! “Inspired to inspire and healed to do the same”, is the self proclamation that fuels “E”. Each show she strives to encourage others while sharing different genres of great music, interviewing amazing guests and raising awareness about matters close to her heart! During this Season Finale “Ladies Night” episode, “E” along with Guest Co-Host Kamilah Cyree interview singer/songwriter and single adoptive parent; Tasha Montfort, writer/journalist Imade Nigobun as she discusses her in-progress book “Depressed While Black” and Forbes.com featured brand strategist; Crystal Z. Perry. Presented by: GRINDHARD RADIO

 
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Are you a survivor? Can you inspire someone in a 1 minute video or less? What inspires you? Art, comedy, music?

My new labor of love @InspirationWithE is something that I’m SUPER excited about! It’s a space where I raise awareness while combining my love for fellow survivors, multicultural diversity, ALL genres of music and all nouns that inspire me! 

For a chance to be featured on my #InspirationWithE INSTAGRAM page, share YOUR 1 minute VIDEO of inspiration, love, motivation of overcoming, enduring health/hardships or survival that ends with a message of HOPE!! Get CREATIVE!

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Ilona ( pronounced “Ee-loh-nuh”) is by far one of the most thoughtful people in our Instagram Poet community. She makes sure we remain a cyber family by looking out for the poet behind each poem. Be it health issues, life changes or an extended absence; Ilona reaches out to everyone. In addition to being considerate, she has the nerve to be one heck of a writer. Actually…she’s pretty darn amazing.

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One of my favorites…

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She speaks…

I was born in Philadelphia. My parents were teachers and an odd interracial couple, in the midst of the late 60s and early 70s. My mother, a third generation Japanese American that was a toddler when put in the internment camps in Arizona during WWII and my father, a Hungarian- Gypsy immigrant, who escaped Russia’s invasion of Budapest at 14 years old. My mom taught world cultures and was very creative. My father was an instrumental music teacher and strolling violinist, on the side.

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I wrote my first poem at 6 and by 8 was writing lyrics for my dad. I was surrounded by books with an extensive library, even from a very young age. Mostly, folklore, mythology and Fairytales from around the world, because my mom loved them.

I have always loved words. Totally and completely. I’m the geeky girl that loves her dictionary app the most on her phone. Got caught under the covers, with a flashlight reading until 3 – 4 in the morning. I wrote everyday when I was young. Short stories, poems, lyrics…eventually, I, also, discovered painting and sculpture. And went on to get a degree in Fine Arts with a minor in storytelling and mythology.

But eventually life happened. During a long and life draining 20 year marriage/relationship. I stopped writing, stopped creating…for 19 years…nothing. When he left me, suddenly, on Christmas day for another woman…with a 3 line note on a 5 x7 card. My world changed forever.

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I began to journal and then, write poetry, to handle the ensuing PTSD and depression, as well as my exacerbated bipolar disorder. Over a year later, I changed my IG (Instagram) to mainly a poetry page. I wanted to express my journey to a new life. I, honestly, never thought anyone else would read my work. But I discovered a world of supportive and creative people that understood me, in ways no one else had.

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I try to get naked with my words. I write about everything…stories, my loves, my pain, my changing mind, erotic desires, nature, and healing. It is the one way I reveal myself to myself. And scream out all the things I cannot process in my head.

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I am so grateful for this path. For the wonderful community, I’m now a part of here. It has been a powerful part of my healing.

 

e Speaks…

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FullSizeRender(10)I have been blessed to see different facets of her poetry unfold. There is a sincerity laced within her persona that finds its way into her writing. Even the pieces which speak of yearning and unrequited love are gentle. Inviting. Believable. Relatable.

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In her own words…

If you were to ask Celine to describe herself, she would tell you that she’s just a simple girl “WITH NOTHING MUCH TO TELL”. But ask her write and she will unknowingly show you how deep she is.

A sufferer of Bipolar depression, she had to learn to channel her moods through words and through her work as a freelance massage therapist. “I LOOK AT EVERYTHING IN ART FORM..EVERYTHING..I HAD TO LEARN AT LEAST, BUT THAT’S HOW OR JUST ONE WAY I NOW COPE”.

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But writing became her favorite because it allowed her to go to places that she sometimes would never take herself. All these years as she gave therapy to others, along the way she found out that writing was hers. It started to be a relief for her depression, for the tears she could not explain and the love she felt.

One of my favorite pieces she dedicated to her Grandfather’s battle with cancer…

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She loves reading and now writing. There was (and still is) so much for her to let go, there were so much emotional doors she felt the need to open, even though some doors remain closed; but poetry became the next best thing.

And then there was the time we collaborated…

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Her brain told her that she had to share it with others; because a lot of individuals told her she was strong for surviving all the she had been through. She needed fresh eyes to see {how frail is and} other parts of her personality.

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Alas…another one of my favorites…

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e Speaks…

Thank you for joining us here at http://www.authenticiteespeaks.com and stopping by the #WriterCrushSeries Celine!!

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