December 30, 2019

This morning, I sat in the 8th funeral/homegoing I’ve attended this year. Woulda been the 10th if I could’ve gotten the time off from work to pay my respects to the others.

Two suicides; the youngest of which was 10 yrs old, one murder, and 4 of the deaths having made the news. And that’s just my story. One iota of it actually. There’s no doubt in my mind you have your own.

This morning, I sat in the 8th funeral/homegoing I’ve attended this year. My pen listened to the gut wrenching pain around me. Sobs and faint smiles of sweet recollection of the 32 yr old laid to rest, kissed the air. My mind fought vehemently with time as I listened to his aunt read a poem she wrote entitled “We’ve Got To Stop Meeting Like This”.

She was so right. Why do we do that? I’m not sure why we do that. You know…that. Like we have forever.

So if I reach for you. If I hug you from my core. If I tell you, “I love you” or “I miss you” or that I’m happy to see you, its intentional. I am intentional about my love and the way that I love. So very intentional…and there are a myriad of reasons why.

For me, Peter is one of my many reasons why. Supervisor turned family friend who years later even sang at my wedding; I couldn’t wait to see him when we relocated back to the East Coast 2 years ago. Even though we had kept in touch I decided to surprise him with the kids. He had no idea we had moved back.

I had it all planned out. I called him two weeks after we got settled but instead his cousin answered because she recognized my name. She had just came from his funeral.

Yeah.

So if I love on you, thank you, honor you, look into your eyes and tell I miss you, hit you up out the clear blue, let you know I’m happy to see you…every time I see you – allow me.

‘Cause this morning, I sat in the 8th funeral/homegoing I’ve attended this year…💫e

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I remember being barren for the first 4 years of my marriage. It was a difficult time. My side of the family is small but I married into a huge, supportive and loving tribe. And Lord were my prayers answered! I mean like literally almost everyone had 3 – 6 children each. Just a kabillion of them LOL!

I can laugh and smile now. As a single woman; I remember praying that my future husband would have a big family. But I had completely forgotten about that prayer request to be honest. Actually I was so deeply in love at that time – it didn’t matter if my now husband of over 21 years, was an only child…

I can laugh and smile now.

I can laugh and smile now.

But it ABSOLUTELY sucked when we began to try to have children. And false pregnancy test after false pregnancy test after false pregnancy test…my GOD. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????

It never dawned on me that it could be my husband, right? And it wasn’t.

But why as women are we automatically conditioned to absorb blame in a subconscious effort to cushion the fall of others?

No matter the matter?

I digress.

And instead – I testify.

If you’re new here – welcome. Here’s the abbreviated version.

Kayla was born 6 weeks early. 5 lbs 8oz.

Kevin Jr. was full term. 10 lbs. 6oz.

Kyle never got to see the light of day and is the inspiration behind the song I wrote entitled It Hurt Too Bad (Not To Be For My Good).

Not sure why the Lord would have me share this again nor why would he want me to share it at this moment.

But be encouraged. No matter what you have been believing God for.

After my last at home pregnancy test read negative I gave up. But my Dr. asked if she could do a blood test. Needless to say I was already almost 6 weeks pregnant with Kayla.

Sometimes under the guise of your life’s false negatives, closed doors and rejection – your positive results are just being better prepared to be revealed.

Because of Him,

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So my heart is still racing & I’m still physically exhausted from a nightmare I had in two different settings last night. Exhausted from (in the dream) fighting a spiritual war through natural means. Fought it in the natural because of the way my enemies came packaged. Sweet, adorable, seemingly kind, as though approaching with good intentions. FAMILIAR to me and on familiar territory.

I fought defensively as not to hurt them (physically blocking etc) to keep them from hurting me WITHOUT destroying them. But I didn’t realize they were out to destroy me. It wasn’t until I woke up that it clicked it was a SPIRITUAL battle and should’ve been fought proactively the entire time.

“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” – Ephesians 6:12 (KJV)

A lot of us are handling nouns that are destroying us with kid gloves because they are FAMILIAR. Friends, family, business partnerships, relationships, places and moments that are continuing to hurt us and stop us from progressing to the next level.

People in our lives that we REALLY thought were sent by God but they are really on assignment from the enemy to steal, kill and destroy your DESTINY. Satanically energized to CONFUSE you of your identity and worth.

We continue to get sucka punched by the same person, place or thing BECAUSE our guard is down. And our guard is down ONLY because of the familiarity of the connection. WAKE UP. Like the cute little boys in The Passion Of Christ who eventually revealed themselves as demons assigned to torment Judas. He didn’t see the attack coming because of the spiritual condition he was in…💫e

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Welcome to the “Inspiration With E” Radio Show with Ericka Arthur! “Inspired to inspire and healed to do the same”, is the self proclamation that fuels “E”. Each show she strives to encourage others while sharing different genres of great music, interviewing amazing guests and raising awareness about matters close to her heart! During this Couples Edition episode “E” Interviews Guest Co-Host & Husband of 19 1/2 years – Grammy Award nominated, Stellar Award winning; music producer, composer & musician, Kevin Arthur @kevindarthur; Entrepreneurs & married couple of 22 years; Edward and Ri Laws of http://www.jonbrioche.com @jonbrioche and Entrepreneurs married 2 years; Waleed & Quiana Shamsid-Deen of facebook.com/SupremeBurgerUS @thesupremeburger. Call-in 323-693-3043 and press “1” to stream LIVE with “E” and her guests ON AIR! Presented by: GRINDHARD RADIO https://authenticiteespeaks.com/

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SEASON 1 EPISODE 5 @InspirationWithE Radio Show! 7PM EST

During this episode “E” (of Authenticitee Speaks) Interviews Guest Co-Host & Husband of 19 1/2 years – Grammy Award nominated, Stellar Award winning; music producer, composer & musician, Kevin Arthur @kevindarthur:

Entrepreneurs & married couple of 22 years; Edward and Ri Laws of http://www.jonbrioche.com (facebook.com/JonBrioche) @jonbrioche:

and Entrepreneurs married 2 years; Waleed & Quiana Shamsid-Deen of facebook.com/SupremeBurgerUS @thesupremeburger:


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BLOWN AWAY!



MY NEW RADIO SHOW: Inspiration With E (@inspirationwithe & @EAInspiration) – SEASON 1 – EPISODE 2! *SPECIAL FAITH EDITION aired tonight*

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SUNDAY AUGUST 27, 2017 – 7p|6c EST on @grindhardradio! .

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JOIN ME TONIGHT!

My new radio show continues tonight with Episode 2: “The Faith Edition” (@inspirationwithe) .

SUNDAY AUGUST 27, 2017 – 7p|6c EST on @grindhardradio! .
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Meet me there!💫e .

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Inspired to inspire others…healed to do the same! All are welcome, Including YOU! All genres of music, interviewing amazing guests, raising awareness & ending stigma! ALL are welcome. The support, both publicly & privately has been incredible. Blessings💫e

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PRAYER WEDNESDAYS – 6 WEEKS



As most of you know, my own radio show, “Inspiration With E” launches next Sunday night – Aug. 20, 2017. 7p – 830p @grindhardradio


The season runs for 6 weeks so the WEDNESDAY before each show has been set aside as a day of prayer specifically for the show and my guests. 


DISCLAIMER 

I am a woman of faith BUT at times my show will feature secular music, and interviews with different races and/or non believers. IF that is an issue for you, PLEASE keep the negativity far, far, far away from me. I am VERY serious about life outside the 4 walls and showing much LOVE to EVERYONE is very important to me. 
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Inspired to inspire others…healed to do the same! All are welcome, Including YOU! All genres of music, interviewing amazing guests, raising awareness & ending stigma! ALL are welcome. The support, both publicly & privately has been incredible. Blessings💫e
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8/14/17

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She is strong. Beautiful and strong. When asked what impresses me I often respond, “those who do what I cannot“. She is one of them. She is Social Justice meets Poetic Justice and she has this thing for Love. 

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In her own words…

Thalia Edwards was born on September 8th 1983 in Takoma Park, MD to Deaf parents (Ecuadorian mother and African American father). She was raised in Upper Montgomery County, Maryland to which she molded her love for writing poetry as a form of expression. In 2006, she embarked on a career of sign language interpreting to which she used poetry to filter out her thoughts and feelings relating to the people she worked with and for on a daily basis. The only time she felt at home with herself was through the art of words which gave life to her first book “Black Codes“. 

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Shynon Barnayha

I am a mother of 3 children; 2 boys and a daughter. In 2007 I was diagnosed with epilepsy. I never wanted to believe it. I was trying to figure out how this happened. I had never had a seizure as a child. My family doesn’t have any signs of having seizures. I called my heart out and I remember looking at my kids thinking I’m going to die before they are even grown up. I was depressed and a million thoughts were running in my head. I was trying to reflect “Why me and how?”

Then I remembered my ex-husband (kid’s dad). He and I were always fighting. He was very abusive; verbally, emotionally, physically; an alcoholic and on drugs. When I had my major first seizure, it was on my birthday. I remember riding in an ambulance dripping in blood and my face burning. When I was able to check my face, I looked in the mirror once I had arrived to the hospital. It was burnt up on one side of my face from scraping against the carpet, blood everywhere, couches, puddles of blood on the floor. It had taken me 3-6 months to heal from all the injuries. I knew my face and my life would never be the same again. I couldn’t help but feel ugly and useless. My kids wouldn’t see me raise them.

Living with epilepsy has only made me get stronger and gain strength. I had learned to stop feeling sorry for the mistakes I had made when it came to my past. I had to learn how to concentrate on my future. I hated feeling like I wasn’t going to accomplish what I wanted to do within my life. All I had pictured my whole life was having a strong family, actually getting married to someone that will NOT abuse me or my children. I wanted to live in peace and happiness.

I have to thank my family and friends who have supported me in making sure that I don’t let this get me down and that I still grow as a person; by telling me that I will always have their support. To my kids Pharrel, Asiah and Jarell, they had supported me through thick and thin. They had seen me have epileptic seizures and they took care of me. I love my children for that. I thank God every day that I am still alive.

 

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*November is Epilepsy Awareness Month. For more information visit: http://www.epilepsy.com/make-difference/get-involved/national-epilepsy-awareness-month

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