I remember being barren for the first 4 years of my marriage. It was a difficult time. My side of the family is small but I married into a huge, supportive and loving tribe. And Lord were my prayers answered! I mean like literally almost everyone had 3 – 6 children each. Just a kabillion of them LOL!

I can laugh and smile now. As a single woman; I remember praying that my future husband would have a big family. But I had completely forgotten about that prayer request to be honest. Actually I was so deeply in love at that time – it didn’t matter if my now husband of over 21 years, was an only child…

I can laugh and smile now.

I can laugh and smile now.

But it ABSOLUTELY sucked when we began to try to have children. And false pregnancy test after false pregnancy test after false pregnancy test…my GOD. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????

It never dawned on me that it could be my husband, right? And it wasn’t.

But why as women are we automatically conditioned to absorb blame in a subconscious effort to cushion the fall of others?

No matter the matter?

I digress.

And instead – I testify.

If you’re new here – welcome. Here’s the abbreviated version.

Kayla was born 6 weeks early. 5 lbs 8oz.

Kevin Jr. was full term. 10 lbs. 6oz.

Kyle never got to see the light of day and is the inspiration behind the song I wrote entitled It Hurt Too Bad (Not To Be For My Good).

Not sure why the Lord would have me share this again nor why would he want me to share it at this moment.

But be encouraged. No matter what you have been believing God for.

After my last at home pregnancy test read negative I gave up. But my Dr. asked if she could do a blood test. Needless to say I was already almost 6 weeks pregnant with Kayla.

Sometimes under the guise of your life’s false negatives, closed doors and rejection – your positive results are just being better prepared to be revealed.

Because of Him,

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I first introduced Emmanuella Raphaelle to this space over a year ago during my 2017 #WriterCrushWednesday series. Much of what I shared at that time, such as my admiration and respect, has only increased after reading her first book: After The Affair – Re Membering.

I don’t remember finishing a book and immediately flipping to the front cover to begin reading it again. It’s. That. Good.

An autobiography. Truth encapsulated. A lover of words and master chef in serving them well. This memoir has fed me and yet I wanted more.

When I first met Celestial, as I often call her; I discerned a weight that could not be denied. She garnered a depth that casual glances could not pinpoint or ignore. Reading her work always felt inviting; as though I had stumbled across a flowing discourse midstream that I was welcome to dance in. However laced throughout the 388 pages of robust writing is a story that deserves to be felt over and over and over again.

It’s my favorite kind of writing. Raw. Honest. A gift. Published by a publishing company Emmanuella created to house this first fortune of many to come. Do get it. Do read it. Do get it when you read it.

Oh and be blessed…’cause I was.

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Welcome to Day 27 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 27

To Someone Who Has Lost Faith In Love

Losing something gives the connotation that we once had it. Be it our house keys or one’s proverbial mojo: losing something that we’ve come to cherish and/or depend on can be life altering.

Losing faith in love is usually a result of betrayal or expecting more than someone is really able to deliver. The most encouraging advice I can give is to be honest with yourself first.

Do you still want love? Do you want to be loved? I find so many issues stem from childhood rejection and perverted perception. Love is not abusive or manipulative. Perhaps it’s the agony of waiting. Wondering if it will ever be your turn.

More than receiving, love is what we are willing to give. Selfishness stifles. Has it ever dawned on you that another may be hurting too? Someone just may need the faith you lost in order for them to find faith in love again. Releasing ourselves from the weight of our loss makes room to simultaneously give and receive the healing power of love.

Who has need of what you’ve lost?…💫e

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So my heart is still racing & I’m still physically exhausted from a nightmare I had in two different settings last night. Exhausted from (in the dream) fighting a spiritual war through natural means. Fought it in the natural because of the way my enemies came packaged. Sweet, adorable, seemingly kind, as though approaching with good intentions. FAMILIAR to me and on familiar territory.

I fought defensively as not to hurt them (physically blocking etc) to keep them from hurting me WITHOUT destroying them. But I didn’t realize they were out to destroy me. It wasn’t until I woke up that it clicked it was a SPIRITUAL battle and should’ve been fought proactively the entire time.

“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” – Ephesians 6:12 (KJV)

A lot of us are handling nouns that are destroying us with kid gloves because they are FAMILIAR. Friends, family, business partnerships, relationships, places and moments that are continuing to hurt us and stop us from progressing to the next level.

People in our lives that we REALLY thought were sent by God but they are really on assignment from the enemy to steal, kill and destroy your DESTINY. Satanically energized to CONFUSE you of your identity and worth.

We continue to get sucka punched by the same person, place or thing BECAUSE our guard is down. And our guard is down ONLY because of the familiarity of the connection. WAKE UP. Like the cute little boys in The Passion Of Christ who eventually revealed themselves as demons assigned to torment Judas. He didn’t see the attack coming because of the spiritual condition he was in…💫e

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Welcome to Part 2 of my new poetry series comprised of pieces originally shared on my Instagram page! You can view the launch here! I’ll be sharing 10 pieces at a time. Let me know which one is your favorite! Welcome new faces!


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Excited about the awaited launch of my new poetry series comprised of pieces originally shared on my Instagram page! I’ll be sharing 10 at a time. Let me know which one is your favorite! Welcome new faces!


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Show Description Season 1 Episode 5


Welcome to the “Inspiration With E” Radio Show with Ericka Arthur! “Inspired to inspire and healed to do the same”, is the self proclamation that fuels “E”. Each show she strives to encourage others while sharing different genres of great music, interviewing amazing guests and raising awareness about matters close to her heart! During this Couples Edition episode “E” Interviews Guest Co-Host & Husband of 19 1/2 years – Grammy Award nominated, Stellar Award winning; music producer, composer & musician, Kevin Arthur @kevindarthur; Entrepreneurs & married couple of 22 years; Edward and Ri Laws of http://www.jonbrioche.com @jonbrioche and Entrepreneurs married 2 years; Waleed & Quiana Shamsid-Deen of facebook.com/SupremeBurgerUS @thesupremeburger. Call-in 323-693-3043 and press “1” to stream LIVE with “E” and her guests ON AIR! Presented by: GRINDHARD RADIO https://authenticiteespeaks.com/

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During this episode “E” (of Authenticitee Speaks) Interviews Guest Co-Host & Husband of 19 1/2 years – Grammy Award nominated, Stellar Award winning; music producer, composer & musician, Kevin Arthur @kevindarthur:

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POSITION OVER PERSON

Respect has to be earned. This we know. Yes. True. Some situations are not that easy. Very cloudy. Gray. Even painful. Painful to rehearse, relive, revisit. Absolutely. It is VERY difficult when she (as far as what he told you) was/is this, that, and the other. 

There comes a time when YOU have to make a decision to soar as an eagle ABOVE chickens. PERIOD. 

Challenge yourself to look at the bigger picture. THE BIG PICTURE. The children. Your relationship with them. Not that FAKE “act right only when” your husband/boyfriend/man/crush/potential Boo OR sidepiece is around. Yep. That’s real. Not that fake “trying to impress his family and friends, get in good with his mom and sisters” foolishness.

You gotta…THINK

Think Long term. The children have feelings. They grow up. They remember. Just like you do/did. When you’re so easily pulled into Team Petty and even comparing yourself as better…and running your mouth…yeah. Stop. 

There are definitely acts too horrific to even mention and “respect” is the LAST thing on your mind. UNDERSTOOD!!! But this every day conversation about her and undermining her position as the one who gave birth to the child/children? Stalking her and her page like she’s YOUR man? You don’t know what the child sees/hears/overhears and will remember. Just food for thought. Real talk. At the end of the day, that’s still the child’s mother. What you say (and do) says MORE about you than you realize. Trust. 

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5/6/17
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