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thief

i was aloof.

thought love and lust were the same

that passion and persistence

insured mutual affection

was paying him no mind

he was a married big brother in the Faith

but here he was in the church hallway

telling me about the perfect discoloration

of my lips in front of others

the look on his face when he realized

i had never noticed or even thought about

it challenged me

surely you knew that

he smirked

surely i should’ve known that

i thought

maybe that’s the day when everything

changed well one of many

the day a grown man taught

fully clothed 19 yr old self

that I had superpowers

minus the cape

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Thank you for being here!

Blessings!

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Welcome to Day 29 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 29

To The One Thinking Of Killing Herself

The background photos I chose during this writing challenge have been just as important to me as the content presented. For this prompt, I selected a photo that captured a range of emotions one may exhibit behind a smile. We often interact with hurting, hopeless and suicidal people more than we realize. Some are incredibly anxious and overwhelmed by life but find themselves stifled by the stigma of crying out for help; so they don’t. Instead…they smile.

Keeping up appearances.

Prior to being trained as a volunteer suicide crisis counselor, I served as a volunteer rape counselor for a short while. I remember the training sessions as empowering but extremely intense at times. Sitting in a classroom full of women unveiled common misogynistic prejudices against victim survivors because of their appearance. This was long before the momentum of Tarana Burke’s #MeToo movement erupted and common assumptions about attire being a contributing factor to sexual assault were prevalent.

Assumptions.

Assuming that a suicidal person has to “look” suicidal happens all the time. This is why it’s not uncommon for grieving loved ones to be in shock. “Them? But there were no signs. They were so happy. I thought things were looking up for them!”; when in essence the sudden happy go lucky calmness is a result of their being at piece with the decision to end their life.

But what does a suicidal person look like? We all know what it’s like to hide our true feelings at one time or another. But most suicidal people learn how to hide how they feel because they don’t want to be a burden or think they’ll be misunderstood. Yes. Those are a set of assumptions from the other side – but what if someone is willing to help or can relate?

To the girl who is thinking about killing herself or anyone else reading this – please don’t. I’m not talking to your smile, facade or mask. I’m talking to the part of you that still looks for a reason to smile. I’m talking to the part of you that wants to live. You are not alone. As a matter of fact I encourage you to visit Live Through This‘ website. You may very well find your story in the eyes of real life suicide attempt survivors who now courageously share their stories.

No assumptions or judgments here. You and your story…matter.

If you or a loved one are suicidal, is in crisis or having a hard time coping at this very moment; PLEASE know that you matter and are not alone! If you need someone to talk to, don’t be afraid to reach out to the resources below!

The National Suicide Hotline

800-273-TALK (Veterans Press 1)

TEEN SUICIDE CRISIS HOTLINE- 800-852-8336 (Trained Teen Counselors)

The Trevor Project (LGBT Community) 866-488-7386

Trans Lifeline (Transgendered Community) 877-565-8860

Crisis Text: Text HOTLINE to 741741 ***If outside the U.S visit http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

In my thoughts….💫e

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HAPPY RESURRECTION SUNDAY!!

I absolutely cannot believe it’s April 1, 2018 already! But I am totally committed to seeing the March 2018 Writing Challenge through to completion! It has been fun, insightful and incredibly challenging to write AND post everyday. I am always writing but there are times where either my schedule prevents my ability to upload the post or what I’m writing that day doesn’t coincide with the theme.

Either way I’m so glad you’re here!! When I checked my stats, which I rarely do anymore; I saw that readers from ALL over the world still visit my site!!! It reminded me of the international blog party I threw a couple of years ago! Thank you for being here!!

Well, I’m going to share this writing prompt piece before I head out to church. Much love and prayerfully I can post at least one more tonight. Though I will finish the challenge, I do not want it to leak too much more into April. Let’s go!

Welcome to Day 28 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 28

To Yourself When You Can’t Get Out Of Bed

I think it’s so ironic that due to my delay in posting the theme pertaining to getting up when you don’t want to; falls on Easter Sunday. Though I have many readers and supporters who are non believers, I genuinely appreciate them honoring the Authenticitee Speaks Non Judgement Zone here (and it’s mutual). But as a Christian, Jesus Christ “getting up” is literally the crux of my faith.

But there are days when God uses other things to inspire me to “get up”.

Purpose is imperative! For some it’s the pitter patter of little feet depending on them; be it toddlers or fur babies. For some it’s to pay mortgage or save for college or an upcoming vacation. I’m personally inspired and motivated by remembering those who want to get up and can’t. Be it due to health issues or mobility limitations: the ability to get up is a gift. A gift to oneself and a gift to others.

Jesus Christ’s “getting up” was fueled by LOVE. Find what you love and getting up won’t be so difficult.

Enjoy your day! Let me hear your voice💫e

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Welcome to Day 23 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 23

To Your Friends

Seasons. If I’ve learned anything about friendship, it’s that seasons apply to connections as well. I’ve always been very anal and guarded about who I trust. From trying to protect my heart and mind contractually in platonic and familial relationships (true story) to doing everything I can to make sure no one feels left out on my watch.

Friendship. There are tiers and levels to this thing. And you know it’s funny because just a few days ago I gave a “just because” shoutout on my personal Facebook page; thanking my support network:

What’s funny is I deactivated my original Facebook account for 8 years; only to return almost a year ago at the request/major nudging of two organizations I’m affiliated with, one being GRINDHARDRADIO. It definitely came in handy because of the August 2017 launch of my Inspiration With E Radio Show and it’s also enhanced my accessibility to certain movements that inspire me. But I’m not in love with Facebook as it’s become a place I periodically blurt out random thoughts, link my writing and post occasional immediate family pics. Out of all of my followers I can literally count on one hand the number of people I’m referring to when I say “friends”.

I know a lot of people. And my acquaintance and extended family lists are ever growing, but I don’t throw the term “friend” around lightly at all. I don’t believe in luck but my mommy always said, if you have just one real friend, consider yourself lucky. She was right.

If I’ve learned nothing else:

Friendship is a major investment that requires time, transparency and thoughtfulness. I expect and want ALL of my relationships to THRIVE. This means I must take responsibility for the health, tone and tenor of every relationship and assume nothing. More than anything, I want to be an even better friend to the amazing sisters and brothers God has supernaturally imparted into my life. I love them deeply.

I can see the faces of those who have walked through some of my darkest moments and saddest of days with me; especially in the last few years. A few names I can’t even call publicly but I thank God for them every day. They loved me UNCONDITIONALLY and challenged me. They were honest with me and protected me. They spoke life over me and deemed me worthy. Reminded me who I was and Whose I was. They came through for me and came to know me very well. They deserve the world and though they care about me – just as I am, I look forward to improving, growing, maturing in my love and even blessing them (and their pockets) one day soon.

Thank you so much. Words cannot describe my appreciation. Love you to life. Thank you forever strong.💫e

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Welcome to Day 22 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 22

To Someone You No Longer Talk To

They say we are better off letting

Sleeping dogs lie

But being lied to by a dog

Pretending to sleep

Felt like a nightmare

But I love to dream and I believed

Your lulla-lies would make

them come true

So I let my guard down to rest

Rested my eyes long enough

To trust

Trusting you to navigate

Our self inflicted course

Palms gripped

Teeth clenched

Drive on driver

Drive on

Drive me mad with desire

Intrinsic race

Hurry the pace

Creative is our space

W a i t!

Wake me

For the dream has gone cold

Awaken nightmare’s song

Of

you

letting

us

go….

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Welcome to Day 21 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 21

To The One Who Inspired Me To Write

Dear S t r e n g t h

Do you remember?

The day you called me a writer?

I was apologizing for cramming so many words

Into the tightest and warmest of spaces

Shrouded in smoldering soaked brevity

You taught me it was ok to learn again

I had never heard my name until

With your beckoning

And without my permission

All of me responded to you.

“It’s ok…you’re a writer”

S l o w e r

Say it again

I too; am still smiling

The way you kissed my mind…

You’re forever my

P e n moving

S o u l stirring

E y e locking

H i p rocking

L i p soaking

P r o m i s e mouthing

Cause and effect

Remedy and reason

Symptom and sealant

B a r r i e r breaking

M o m e n t mounting

Come h i t h e r kinda King

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Welcome to Day 18 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 18

To Anyone Needing Strength

The vintage piece I’ve selected for today’s prompt is entitled: When You Regret An Answered Prayer.

Be encouraged…so glad you’re here💫e

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Welcome to Day 17 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 17

To Someone Who Is No Longer With You

The vintage piece I’ve selected today is a poem entitled: EYE CONTACT.

Thank you for being here💫e

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Welcome to Day 16 of #TheLoveLetterProject Writing Challenge created by Marie of The Notion Of Love! If you’re just joining me, you can catch up on the rules here!

Day 16

To Anyone Who Is Struggling

I really debated on how I was going to handle the letter writing challenge for today. I kinda felt like I’d been repeating myself lately. I’ve been on this mission of really saving lives and raising suicide awareness for the last few years now and sometimes wonder of it gets old.

But then God reminded me, everybody struggling is not suicidal. And everybody struggling is not struggling with the same thing. But we all struggle with something.

So what I chose for this and if necessary the next few prompts during this challenge is to share a vintage piece that prayerfully will speak to where you are on your journey at this time. If not…bookmark it for a friend won’t ‘cha?

The piece I’ve selected is: Guess I Needed That Cry.

Let me hear your voice…💫e

If you or a loved one are suicidal, is in crisis or having a hard time coping at this very moment; PLEASE know that you matter and are not alone! If you need someone to talk to, don’t be afraid to reach out to the resources below!

The National Suicide Hotline

800-273-TALK (Veterans Press 1)

TEEN SUICIDE CRISIS HOTLINE- 800-852-8336 (Trained Teen Counselors)

The Trevor Project (LGBT Community) 866-488-7386

Trans Lifeline (Transgendered Community) 877-565-8860

Crisis Text: Text HOTLINE to 741741 ***If outside the U.S visit http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html for assistance

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